Journey in Trust

By Heather Varner of Independence, Missouri, USA

Lift up your eyes and fix them on the place beyond the horizon to which you are sent. Journey in trust, assured that the great and marvelous work is for this time and for all time.  Doctrine and Covenants 161:1a

God has accompanied me on a journey of patience and trust. My husband, Matt, and I had been married a couple of years and were ready to have a child. We thought within a year or so we would have a little bundle of joy. But after four years, it was still just the two of us.

We visited several doctors, including a specialist. There were tests, medicine, and procedures—but still no baby. I was confused, depressed, even angry with God. Why weren’t we allowed to become parents? What had I done wrong? Did God hear my prayers for a child? It seemed other couples had children so easily. It wasn’t fair.

Over time, my anger and frustration toward God lessened. Maybe we should choose a different way to bring children into our family. Certain that God must have a child for us somewhere, we began to explore adoption.

Then one day I was driving home from work. I looked at the blue sky and saw a white bird. It seemed to be circling over my car, following me, gliding on the breeze. Seeing the bird gave me a sense of peace, as if God was telling me everything was going to be fine. A few weeks later the doctor confirmed my pregnancy, and in 2009 I gave birth to our precious Emily Rose.

Through all this, I remain assured that God is always present—in our joys and in our sorrows. However life turns out, with patience and trust, I believe we can find goodness in God’s grace. Lift up your eyes and journey in trust.

Prayer for Peace:

Co-creator God, give us faith for the journey. We thank you for our families. We thank you for sending your son to be our Prince of Peace.

Spiritual Practice for the Week: Joy of Gratitude

Stand, if possible, with arms outstretched. Imagine God filling your arms with all that you have: family, friends, and possessions. Hold out your arms until they feel tired. Now, bring your arms across your body. Place your hand over your heart and thank God for the abundance that fills your life. Sit for a time aware of that abundance. Then ask God to help you open your heart in gratitude and share freely with others in deepest gratitude.

Peace Covenant:

Today, God, I will lift my eyes to you in faith.

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